It hurts me all the time.

We could had a good life together, we could married someday. We could sing together every night like we used to be. 3 days is not enough, tough you know I'm lonely but I'm not ready for any relationship. We used to have that feeling, you used to smile when you look at me. Every kiss and every touch. It's like something that I can barely remember. But I have too. Because those memories are fade away. When you said I should move on, I cried like a baby lost his toys. A seconds after that I realized that you doesn't want me anymore. Yeah... you doesn't want me anymore. And you know already this is all my fault. I know and I'm sorry.

You know what?

You opened my eyes, that love is painful. It is enough for me to bury the pain of 3 years ago that I felt. 3 Years ago when he left me to become engaged to another woman. It makes me aware and more conscious as I remember that 5 years ago Aresga leave. He died 2 months after my birthday on 2006. 

Now I prefer someone left me to heaven, so I could still imagine any of his good things that he had, and visit the grave of him rather than I have to be abandoned by someone who still alive and I have to see him happy with another woman and she's not me.

I'm thinking seriously, about marriage.

And guess what, because of you...

I won't trust anybody now till I don't know how long.

Thanks for making such a great pain for me. This will take long to heal, I guess. :)

Faunts - It hurts me all the time

You could never love me

The sky is black above me

You're a shadow lurking in my mind

And it hurts me all the time

Yeah it hurts me all the time

There is something in you

That turns the black sky pale blue

But you've covered up my eyes

And it hurts me all the time

Yeah it hurts me all the time

Yeah it hurts me all the time

Yeah it kills me all the time

Yeah it hurts me all the time

Yeah it hurts me all the time

Yeah it kills me all the time

PS : I did love you :)