The wall for loving

You know how the whole connotation of the word "love" changes as relationships morph? Long time someone and me is like this below :

When we weren't together, we used to say "I love you" to each other all the time, because we did, in the friend sense. I don't think either of us have said that to each other in months. Are we scared that it will be taken the wrong way and ruin everything? OK, I am. I love him, I am in love with him, but I don't know if I love him. Does that make sense? That is just my reasoning.

Remember in The Giver how they didn't even use the word "love" in their society? It wasn't even an emotion that they acknowledged. Sometimes I feel like that would be better. I personally think it is a very strong emotion, and it gets thrown around much too often in our society nowadays. I mean, I am not one to judge whether one really loves their girlfriend/boyfriend, but somehow I can't shake the feeling that they really have no idea what they're talking about when they say it. I guess it's just the thing to say. Sometimes I feel that way. "Goodbye" or "Goodnight" just doesn't feel like enough sometimes, and I really have the urge to say it, just to say it, sort of as a finale. But then I stop and think about it and realize that it's stupid to say it just for the sake of saying it and not feeling so awkward. Saying it could potentially make the situation more awkward.


Those crazy little things been dancing in my  brain lately // And those pictures inspire me.